We had the "Talk"

It's been a weird week...nothing new except the never ending slowness of referrals and that really isn't new.

We had the "talk" about possibly switching out of China...that's a real hard talk to have when you picture your child almost every day in your minds eye.

There are so many questions that you ask yourself:

**are we going to miss our opportunity to become a family of three by waiting in this very slow moving line
**are we going to age out of the program
**should we try a concurrent adoption and if so, where
**do we take the chance domestically and have our heart's broken...I couldn't bear that and that is one of the reasons why we decided on China
**are we going to be to old...will we still be able to do EVERYTHING with Alison
**what if we get sick...this thought just never goes away

One thing that I have learned in our adoption process is Patience...it's hard to come by, but very necessary and that NOTHING is guaranteed.

Well..we have decided to sit tight and wait for our Alison. When I asked Michael if he was prepared to wait another two years, he immediately answered YES. When I asked him if he was ready to be a father at 50 for the first time, he immediately answered YES and then reminded me that he has quite a way to go before he turns 50...sorry husband!

I can just keep saying my prayers each night that things do speed up and we get our girl home with us sooner rather than later.

We are still waiting for you baby...and missing you every day.