NEW RULES?!?!?!?!?

There are some rumors that China is/may be coming up with new rules to possibly get things to speed up for International Adoption...but they are just rumors and there was nothing specific said as far as what may change with these new rules and nothing specific as far as who these new rules would affect.

I read this the other day and boy, did it knock the wind out of my sails. I understand that we need to take rumors with a grain of salt and that they are only rumors, but the site where I read the rumor has been right on top of things and I've found in the 20+ months that we have been officially waiting for Alison to come home that this site is usually right if it's posted.

I just wonder how long we can wait and hope that we will still be safe to still be able to adopt Alison and bring her home. Are we going to wait 2-3-4 more years and then be told that we can't complete our adoption?

I'm trying very hard to stay positive and believe what the CCAA has been saying...if we stay in line we will have a child...they can't say when, just that we will have a child.

I think that my biggest fear is that I will age myself out...I'm now 44 years old and I'm asking myself now what is more important? To wait possibly another 3-4 years and be told that we are to old to adopt from China or look elsewhere to start our family sooner.

My whole heart is with China right now...I've always wanted to have more than one child, but if we continue to wait in China, if we get a referral for Alison...she will be our one and only child...but China isn't the safe bet for a successful adoption that it was just two short years ago.

I have a lot of soul searching to do...my Alison is real and the thought of pulling out of China is feeling like I'm abandoning my child, but what I would really be abandoning is my hope of Alison.

There are over 15,000 family's still waiting to adopt from China and people are dropping out every day. This is really so sad for both the children and the parents who have dreamed of starting their family. I've read of people who have lost their dreams of becoming parents and I wonder if this is going to be us some day! I've read of family's changing their adoption plan and have received referral already for their child.

So now the question is...do we wait...or do we make another plan...I don't have an answer yet.