Alison

It will be one year next Friday that we will be LID (Log in Date) with the CCAA. For one year I've been tossing around names and bouncing them off of Michael.

We both decided that we would wait to see our referral picture before we decided on a name for our daughter and we will. That being said, I'm tired of referring to her as our DD or dear daughter and I really want to give her a name to help me feel that she is real and she is going to come home to us.

So as of today, our daughters temporary name is going to be Alison, this name may stick forever and it may change once we receive our referral picture...we will just have to wait and see.

I need to make her more real today, because today is a bad wait day...it's dark and gloomy outside and it's the same in my heart...I'm so worried about everything that is happening in China, the Natural Disasters...weather wise they are having major snow/ice storms in area's that don't usually get cold weather, the children not getting the proper care, food, diapers, heat...

The major slow downs in referrals, the CCAA supposedly let go a lot of staff people from the review and matching rooms as well as other areas. I worry that this program that we have put all of our hopes and prayer and especially dreams of becoming a family may close down...maybe not this year, but what about next year and we will still be waiting and we will be getting older...

So, yes, I need to make my Alison REAL and giving her a name now makes her more real than just my dear daughter without a name.

We love you Alison and will wait for you to come home.