Update...

I just wanted to update our "Adoption" blog with anything adoption related since I haven't done that in a while.

Referrals are still slow and I honestly haven't been checking the sites that I was glued to for the first three years. We are still waiting to see what will be referred this month and hopefully we will be out of March 2006!! The talk was that March 2006 was one of the biggest months, so who knows, your guess is as good as mine if the referrals will pick up.

I've gone through pretty much the 5 stages of grief...funny, I saw that on Grey's Anatomy last week and I do believe that I've hit all 5 stages!

Stage 1. Denial...I was in denial of the fact that the wait was really going to take 5+ years for our referral to Alison.

Stage 2. Anger...I was very angry with just about everyone involved in our adoption. The Adoption Agency, China, the US Government, GOD...just everyone.

Stage 3. Bargaining...I'll be a great mom, just give me a chance and I'll prove it to you...only one child, that's fine we only need one.

Stage 4. Depression...now this one has been going on since before we started the adoption, it's just gotten worse with the wait...it's better now.

Stage 5. Acceptance...I think that I've finally moved on with my life. I think about Alison, but not every second of every day and honestly, most days I feel that she will not be coming home and I'm okay with that now.

I am finally living my life and not sitting here waiting...doing nothing. I'm more at peace with myself and what may or may not be in store for us.

Now, this doesn't mean that I've given up on Alison coming home - I haven't. We just completed our third round of paperwork to make sure we stay current and qualified to have Alison come home, if/when we make it that far.

So thanks for checking in...we are still here, just not as often as we used to be and thanks for keeping us in your thoughts. Who knows, maybe I'll be back with good news real soon!