I just did IT!

I'm not sure how I feel, but I just sent an email to our social worker inquiring about domestic adoption...I think I'm going to be sick...and I'm very sad.

I've been so torn about waiting for Alison and wondering if she truly will come home to us and we are not in our 50's when she does come home.

We have to get real...do we want a family or not. Of course we do! Do we want to wait for Alison to come home from China...Absolutely! But how long do we wait?

I know that family's are now waiting 3 years for their referral, and you figure we already have two years behind us, but realistically, it could be another 4-5 years before we even get close to our referral date.

So today, we are inquiring about domestic adoption...this is scary too as there is no guarantee with domestic adoption either, but we are just looking for information now...

We are not pulling any paperwork...we are staying in line for our dear sweet Alison...but we have to look at all options now if we truly want to become a family of three.

Please pray that we find our way to our family...I'll take all the good prayers that I can get right now, for Alison or another child domestically that is meant to complete our family.