My Mind is Racing...

It's been one heck of a day today!

I'm crazy busy at work, which is great, but today when I was driving home I kept seeing in my minds eye my beautiful baby girl. I imagined things that we would do together, her official meet and greet with family and friends, her christening, our first trip to Disney Land...just the three of us, what fun! Michael actually relaxing and playing with the baby...it's so weird.

I guess that even though I'm crazy busy (again, this is good) Alison is always on my mind weather I'm aware of it or not. I did have a very peaceful feeling as I was driving home, like...don't worry Kathy...she is coming home...Is HE telling me it's going to all be good and that my prayers are going to be answered? I don't know...I hope so.

I've been staying away from the rumor sites lately and I'm finding it easier not feeling like I have to look every hour or even every 10 minutes!! The wait is what it is and there is nothing I can do to change that...maybe it's acceptance.

I think, WOW...Our anniversary is this Saturday...I can't believe that it's been five years for me and Michael and look at how fast five years have come and gone. I know that August and the Olympics are going to be here before we know it and I just have this feeling that, yes, it is going to pick up after August. We are going into April and the CCAA is still working on early January 2006 referrals...I think they may get out of January 2006 some time this summer. This will still put our referral in the later part of 2009 or even possibly 2010 (I'm hoping that will not be the case), but with the number of people leaving the program (this is very sad) and the talk that more orphanages will be up and running and are in the process of getting the children ready for IA...I guess that I'm feeling very positive about things.

So between work and doing stuff around the house all is well and busy in my world. Spring is finally on the way and I have lots to keep me busy in the yard...I have to redo my flower gardens...well maybe not me, but I'll make sure that Mom comes down to visit a lot until we get it right!

We planted some trees last year and one is definitely dying...same spot where our old "new" tree died. I think we just need to pull it down and put in a gravel/flower area and I can add a bird bath, a feeder and maybe a tall bird house on a large pole. I love the birds.

Still NOTHING has been done in the Nursery...you wait and see...we are going to get stuck behind the 8 ball on the nursery...we are going to get our referral and be no where near ready.

I've been working on a needlepoint for the nursery of some fairies with flowers and a hedgehog...I've been working on and off for a while and I think that I started in the wrong spot and it's looking like I'm going to run out of material before I can finish the design...(hit my hand to the forehead!)

I've put down the attempts at quilting because I was getting frustrated with my inaccuracies...thinking that even though the fabric was "just a little off" from the size it should have been...I'm learning the hard way that you can't be just a little off and I'll be working on this again very soon when I can find the time...I'm ready for the battle to make my babies blanket!

It's good that I can blog. I make Michael's head spin when I start talking about everything that is bouncing around in my head...things I need and want to do, what happened during the day and on and on...so now that I have it all out, he will be truly grateful once he gets home. (Here I go babbling again...but I can do that here.;-)