The Holiday's

This year I've had a hard time getting into the holidays, I didn't decorate at all this year. I was feeling a little down about not having our daughter home, but some day she will be here and I just have to hold onto that. I just hope it's not five years from now...the rumors can make you crazy!!

My brother called me last night to ask how our Christmas was and I told him it was okay, we had Christmas Eve at our house with Michael's family and we went to my mom & dad's house for dinner on Christmas Day. My brother said that it must have been nice to have an all adult Christmas (he has 5 children from ages 2-16) I told him that I would honestly rather have 5 kids running around my house on Christmas day than just a bunch of adults having a very quite Christmas. Some day, we may not have 5 (I would love to have 5) but at least one.

We received two very special Christmas ornaments from Michael's Grandmother (she will be 98 next week!) and his mom. They are decorative round balls that open up and they each wrote a note inside the ornament...This is the best Christmas present that we could have received, they are keepsakes that we will cherish for a long long time to come.

My sister and I are trying to start a family tradition of having a family Christmas party every year. This year the party is going to be at my house and next year it's going to be at her house. We chose the Saturday after Christmas and before New Years because it was just so busy with the holidays to try and fit everything in before Christmas. We currently have approximately 45 people coming to our house and 95% of these people are my immediate family and 5% are friends.

We have a problem getting everyone together because our family is just so large, it would be better to rent a hall. We have a finished basement and that is where half of our guest (the children) will be hanging out and the adults will be upstairs with all the food and football. The Patriots are playing Saturday and we are going to make history with a shut out season...it's going to be crazy!

With the Holidays wrapping up I can say that it was great to have these distractions over the last couple of months and after this weekend we will be back to watching the rumor board and waiting for word that the CCAA is referring more and more days (I can hope)...the current rumor for December is that they may have only refer up to 12/20...that is only four days worth of referrals for the entire month of December.

Pray that we do not receive our child 5 or even 10 years from now...it's just to heartbreaking to even think about, but it could be reality with only four days of referrals being issued each month.

Well, that's enough of this crazy thinking, I have to learn to focus more on the positives, some months are better than others.