Goodbye China...

It's with a very heavy heart that I write this blog. We are coming up on our four year anniversary since we have been LID with China awaiting the arrival of our Alison. Four very long hard years. We are withdrawing our paperwork.

We received word from our agency that in July 2011 the CCAA SHOULD be done with referrals of children for parents that were LID in June 2006. That is another entire year just to get through June of 2006!!

I'm having yet another birthday next week and I'm so afraid that we will not be parents until our mid to late 50's and that scares me. I've looked into other countries and because of our age we would be eligible to adopt a child 5 years old and above.

I'm closing the door to international adoption for now. I think that because of our age and the number of older children here in the USA that need loving families that this may be the best was to go.

Alison will forever be in my heart and I am truly grieving her love and laughter that should have been part of our lives. I miss you baby and hope you have a wonderful life. You will be forever a part of me. I love you...mommy.

Taiwan Program

Well. I finally called our adoption agency back and spoke to the China Program Coordinator. She asked how we were doing (we're okay), if we were being realistic about the wait times (I figure another 5 years give or take)...we are beyond three years now and it could be another five before we get anywhere near close to a referral.

She suggested that we look into a pilot program that the agency has in Taiwan. I met a family with my agency three years ago who was logged in the same time as us and would have been our travel buddies if we ever got to China. She joined in the initial pilot program. I hear that she dropped out of Taiwan and received a SN referral from China. Her daughter is home now.

Anyway...the deal with Taiwan is that the family or social worker helps to make the referral. We have to be open to either gender child (we are). We could receive a referral pretty quickly 3-6-9 months. We only have to submit a letter on why we want to adopt for the referral process with pictures. After the referral is when you have to go on the crazy rush to get all your documents in order and notarized and authenticated. You can expect to travel 12 months after the referral and once you are allowed to travel the adoption is complete.

It seams likely that we will start the process...you suddenly get that little bit of hope that maybe we will be a family of three instead of just two after all.

Time will tell. Please keep us in your prayers.

WOW! It's Three Years Today!

I just realized that today is our 3 year anniversary of our LID...how sad is that! Alison should be home now and getting tucked into bed for the night.

China Program

I got a call from the China Program coordinator with our adoption agency. She left a message wanting to know how we are doing and if she can discuss other options for us instead of China. I don't want to call her back and I haven't. I think that I'm living with my head in the sand and if it's not said out load it won't come to fruition. If I don't hear that the China Program is not going to work for us I still have hope. Right?

I've been getting questioned by friends and acquaintances asking why we still wait for China. I'm waiting for Alison. It's that simple and that hard.

I'm going to have to call Linda, but not today.